of friends whom you've lost.

wow daryl, that must suck man. oh check this page http://www.pbase.com/compuminus/cambridge

i NEVER knew Cambridge could be this nice.. could you?

i'm still putting up my pictures so yah, gimme some more time.

anyway, just had a talk with Dennis to catch up. and i kinda emo-ed again. well, in an indifferent way. she's just so different, and i don't blame her for changing, but it makes me wonder where do i stand in her life. cause i feel transparent. and she said that i was one of her closest friends before, and i din really feel like i was treated as one. but well, i guess you have to factor in that i have feelings for her, so i dun know. i feel like i care for her in a way above wanting reciprocation. and i dun care that nothing happens now, but i just wonder if there will be the old her again. and yah, i feel as though the proximity that we had with each other in the 3.5 days i was there only served to display this rift that has been growing. this barrier that inhibits the love friends would share. and it sucks. no, it hurts.

but yah, such is life and people around you change. i guess my expectations of the whole friendship in general might be a little too high. so here's to a good friendship that i used to have. i miss the old you. goodbye.