this strangeness that seems to flood the room

every time i think about hitting 20 soon, something happens to take my mind off it.
but then, people tell me, why worry about things that are gonna happen anyway.
my reply: i worry about getting there to see it.

and it bothers me, to have this constant paranoia. to have this fear of not being able to see through the little life goals that i have. and i try and find what regrets that may come my way.
and the first thing that pops into mind is...
(i notice the insiduous influence of media)
i don't want to live to be a 40 year old virgin.

voila [EDITED BECAUSE MR GANG CAN'T TAKE TYPOS] , i have proven that something always takes my mind off things.
this concludes my thoughts on hitting 20 soon.